Ok, so I saw this on one of my friend's blogs and I just had to do it. I know most of you probably won't care to read all of this, but if you do, then you're probably one of the people on the list.
Pick thirty people, in no particular order, and type something that you want to say to them. Do not put their name with each statement. The idea is to say whatever you want to, or whatever needs to be said. It doesn't matter if the people will ever read it or not... just say it.
1. You are the love of my life. I don't know what I would do without you. I am the person I am today because of you. If I had never met you, I probably would have been alone for the past 5 years scared of a relationship and lost in this world. I knew you changed my life when I stopped writing poetry in an attempt to find myself. You gave me inspiration and you made and still make me happier than I ever have been. If I had never met you, I probably would have gone on to be a teacher because I would have been too afraid to try anything different. (not that being a teacher is bad, but it's just not for me). But you taught me to chase after the scary things in life. You are my best friend and know that without you, I would be nothing. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life experiencing the scary things with you.
2. Well, we've known each other for 18 years, 6 months, 22 days, and probably a few hours. I knew our relationship was special when at the age of 21, I can still remember going to see you at the hospital when you were born...And I was only 3. What can I say...You were a companion on rainy days, an inventor of games we only understood, and my first best friend. I hope someday we can have those houses beside each other, sit on our front porches, and talk about the years gone by and how the world is going to shit. There have only ever been four people in my life that truly affected me, and know that you are one of them.
3. Yes, we've been told we have a horrible co-dependent relationship and I don't think we've ever gone a day without speaking to each other at least once, even if it was only to say "Hello". Your mother isn't supposed to be one of your best friends. She is supposed to be someone you don't tell all your secrets to and someone you forget to call for weeks on end. But just know that you are also one of those four people I mentioned above.
4. I will always be your little girl, won't I? It doesn't matter if I'm 21, 40, or 70, you'll still say I'm yours. I'm honestly not sure what to say about you. You've always been there for me. You have been a constant in my life and you instilled so many wonderful values and ideals in my mind. Unfortunately, it took me until this year to realize how much I would miss you when I go off and start my own life. Just know you are also one of those four people.
5. I hated you for what you did to me when I was a kid, but I realize now I wouldn't be who I was without you...So, as hard as it is to say this, I forgive you.
6. You were such a big, jolly man. You always reminded me of Santa Claus, especially in your later years when you had your beard. When I was a kid, I honestly was a little scared of you. Mostly though, I'm sorry I never said goodbye.
7. I still remember your voice after all these years. (although I don't know how anyone could forget a raspy voice like that) You were the person who created my ability to write poetry and I will forever thank you for that, even if it did occur only after your death. I still find myself thinking, "I wish she knew the person I am today." I miss you.
8. I didn't meet you until I was a teenager and then you left suddenly and unexpectedly. I wish you could have seen your future grandchildren...I wish you could have seen your son become a success...And I wish I would have told you, if only once, that I loved you and respected you.
9. I will forever remember the days we spent on your farm. I will forever remember your older sister and dad, and cry for the way things ended up. You were my first best friend outside my household. The things I will remember the most are riding the cow in your dad's barn and creating Creepyville. Know that even though we don't see each other that much anymore, you are still one of my best friends.
10. You taught me how to chase after my dreams and how to not be scared of male authority figures. Thank you.
11. You were a best friend for three years and I liked you for all that time. Then we ruined that friendship with one kiss. I will forever hate myself for that.
12. We became friends in the weirdest way. For many years after we started our friendship, I disliked you for the things you did and how you made me feel invisible. It took three years, but I finally forgave you for your self-centeredness in high school. And I'm honestly glad you cried on my shoulder all those years ago.
13. I truly dispise you. I'm sorry, but I do.
14. People say we look alike and we always try to deny it, but I agree with them. I'm sorry I don't see you more. I really do miss our conversations.
15. Thanks for introducing me to Rulfie. He got me through many hard times in my life.
16. I wish you would have stayed in Findlay.
17. I was so glad when I finally started talking to you because I had someone who could relate to the way I felt in my relationship because you are married. I used to think you were a bitch, but I love you. I hope you know that.
18. Sometimes you really annoy me and your quarks get on my nerves. College wouldn't have been the same without you, though, and I love you too!
19. I never met you, but I heard many stories about you. Everyone says I'm just like you, even in the way I walk. I wish I could have met you just once.
20. What happened to the great relationship we used to have? I miss our girl talks. I will still always remember when you told me I was your favorite.
21. I remember creating zoos with you in your yard and many summers spent visiting the real zoo. We were connected at the hip as young kids. I miss that.
22. I don't understand what I did to you to make you hate me and try to steal my best friend when we were kids, but I'm ok with that.
23. You fell off the face of the earth. I haven't seen you since you were 15. You were a very influential part of my childhood and I wish just once I could see you again.
24. Secretly, I would go into your spare bedroom and cry when you yelled at me. I was so incredibly scared of you. Now I don't know why.
25. We were having a family get-together and you were sitting at the table. I was in junior high. I walked by you and you told me to turn my head. Then everyone laughed. If it weren't for you, I probably would have never realized I had a big nose. I wish I could have remained in ignorance.
26. I have never met you, but I really wish I could. I've known you for 8 years, and I just hope that what I do for you makes you happy. I hope someday I can visit.
27. You truly piss me off. Why did you have to change him?
28. Stragely enough, I miss you. The only thing I remember about you is your name and that you had curly black hair. Sometimes I wish you would have been my aunt instead of her.
29. Thank you for making me love animals!
30. And finally, know that you taught me a great deal about friendship and about stubborness. You were a pretty great friend and I'm sorry we didn't stay closer.
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